They ask me why I never remove my brown shades. They wonder if am hiding my dark circles from late night parties. Or covering my teary eyes from a crushed heart. They ask me why I hide behind my brown shades. They ask me if I am scared to make eye contact. Or if I donโt want anyone to know am looking at them. They ask me why I never remove my brown shades. They ask me now, they ask me then but how can I tell?
How do I tell them my brown shades help me see the world with a soothing tint? It tricks me into believing the weather is pleasant and the people a little bit nicer. How do I tell them my brown shades are my armor against anyone trying to peep into my soul? They are my guard that I never let down. They are the veil I hide behind when am asked why I never remove my brown shades.
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Beautiful lines brown shade can does such things! Well shared ๐
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Awesomely written, wouldn’t know what to tell them either..
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It is hard to tell…
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your soul
sole
survive
to thrive
as ya beau
tho
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A Tale of Brown Shades Indeed
Dear Yamini i Actually Have One
In Front of Eyes That Feel and Sense
The World’s Pleasure and Pain For It’s
True There Are Two And More Kinds of the
Autism Spectrum For Those Aloof and Cold And Those Who Feel
And Sense And Truly Know Existence So Much More Than
Just Skin Deep
Truly In Touch my
FRiEnD With or Without
Words So Very Very Much For Real
It’s True i’ve Never been Able to Touch Human
Made Stuff except for Perhaps Silk Without Any
Horrible Discomfort Beyond Words to Describe
Yet On the Other Hand Yes As Far As Empathy
i Surely Have Close to “Mirror-touch synesthesia”
As i Feel the Pain and Pleasure of Other Folks
From A Distance on Similar Parts of my Body
Of Course there are negatives and positives
Associated with these rare gifts as True
When it Comes to Nature It Does Not
Discomfort me to Touch Whatever is
Born This Way Without Human
Tools However the Pain and
Pleasure i Still Surely Feel
And Sense Though
And Through From
A Distance Away from me
It’s Interesting i Can’t Even Stand
to Imagine Someone Sweeping Carpet
Hehe Imagine Trying to Explain this Invisible
Disability to Others if Your Boss Says at Your
Menial Job Go Sweep That Carpet Hehe Somehow
i Avoided that Circumstance In Life With Smiles for the
Most Part at Least as the Hairs are standing up on my Arm
Just Thinking About that Reality Again as True not Just thinking
It is My Power of iMaGiNiNG With All Five Senses And So Much
More in a Synergy of Feelings and Senses that Make Raw Emotions
So Very Real From Head to Toe and So Much More Anyway Again
With Blessings That May Seem Like Both Gift and Curse in 5th Grade
As i was Already Wearing Black Horn Rimmed Glasses in 4th Grade as
What Happens to Kids With Their Heads Close to the Page of Straight A’s
Or Stuck to Screens today as Yes Near Sightedness in Technologically
Advanced Cultures is at Near ‘Pandemic Levels’ As Such True too
on my First Innocent Friends Date in 5th Grade Donna Sat Next
To Her Friend And Me in the Movie Theater as She Took Off
my Black Horned Rim Glasses and Said Oh Look How
Beautiful His Eyes Are Hehe Immediately i No
Longer Felt Like Clark Kent Just For A Second
in my Life Where So Many Folks Thought i
Was Strange i Felt a Little bit Like Superman
That Night and i So Wished i didn’t Have to Wear those
Horn Rimmed Glasses Then as there was at Least One thing
About me it seemed that Girls Liked Yet Oh My Gosh Donna’s Perfume
Was So Strong it Made my Stomach Do Summersaults At Least i Think
That was why i was feeling that way then that was the only Date i Had
in Friendship that way that Night as True i Honestly didn’t know What to Say
Back in Return
to Her Compliment that
Night Yet again gifts and
curses may have another side
And By Middle School When Puberty
Comes and every one Seems to Nip at
The Weak And Strange Fish in the Aquarium
Then There Was Vickie on the Bus Home Then
She Taunted me Saying i Looked like A Girl With my
Beautiful Eye Lashes and Green to Changing Blue Eyes
And The Crowd Source She Attracted on the Bus Did the Same
And Then the Only FRiEnD i Felt Like i Had is the Only Dog i’ve
Ever Had Called Charlie as i Looked out the Bus Window Trying to
Escape Their Insistence that my Eyes Made me a Girl Sadly Charlie
Was on the Side of the Road He had found His Way Outside of our Locked
Fence to Greet me at the Bus Stop There He Didn’t Make it to See me and How
Fortunate i Was that
at Least my Mother
And Sister Cried With
me Saying Good Bye to Him
You Know my FRiEnD It’s Not Hard
For me to Understand Why Some Folks
Turn to The DarK Side When Their Peers
Tell Them in No Uncertain Terms They Don’t Deserve to exist
The Saving Grace is Often A Dog or A Cat or Nature or Even A Gold
Fish in An Aquarium A Loving Mother And Sister Will Potentially Save
Many Lives at the Hands of Vengeance Of A World That Tells Folks They
Don’t Deserve to Exist Yet It’s True What i Find Still to Be True if i Only
Water A Plant
That Turns
Into A Tree
That Gives Shade
Or Inspiration to Someone
Else Indeed i Am Human Enough to Be i Am
So How Does this Relate to Brown SHades And
Invisible Disabilities Indeed Well Even Though i Remained
So Very Poor through Three College Degrees And Still Couldn’t
Output What i Learned through Three College Degrees in School
Just Working at A Very Menial Job Serving Rental Shoes at A Bowling
Center Then Yet A Federal Job and A Door Open to What would Eventually
Come to Be Highest Pay Grades in Federal Employment at Least in the Last
5 Years of a 25 Year Career to Retire With Golden Handcuffs Where i would
Never Have to Worry About Money Again So in my Early 20’s After Breaking
Down in College Taking 3 Months off Going on to Earn 3 Degrees Then a
Full School Load With 3 Part Time Jobs too i Finally Had Enough Money
to Buy Contact Lens And Almost Immediately Young Women Finally
Started to Pay Attention to me hehe even though i Did Have a
First Love at 18 until she Left and i got Really depressed as
Part of Breaking Down in College 3 Months then
Although i Didn’t Have Much to Say Serving
Out Shoes i Could Smile With my Eyes
And Make Most Everyone Smile Back
At Me With Happiness That Way
Yes i learned to Communicate
With my Eyes and they Became
my Not So Secret Weapon Hehe
to Attract Young Women Even though
i Was So Very Poor then my Wife Said
She Liked me Most as i Was a 1 in A Million
Kind Guy It’s True When People Value You in
Someway at Least it Helps the way You Feel About Yourself
Anyway i Eventually Got Very Ill and Had to Retire Early With Type
Two Trigeminal Neuralgia Yet they couldn’t Diagnose it For Two Years
After i Retired so i Retired With Depression as indeed that Disease No
Drug Would Touch the Real Suicide Disease Just Made me Feel like Dying
to Escape Every Moment of the Day Yet it Started in 2006 Before i Retired
Early in 2008 on Annual And Sick Leave a Year And A Half Before it became
Official in 2009 Yes in 2006 the way it Started was i Could No Longer Stand
Colors on TV All i could Watch is Black And White TV so Strange No One
Could Explain Why this was Happening to me Yet this is what Chronic
to Acute Work-Related Stress Will Do For 11 Years to A Human as Not
Only That Yet in the Summer of 2007 in 100 Degree Heat i Would Feel
Chilled From Head to Toe if Only A Breeze Touched my Body Back then
Smiles the way i Dealt With the Extreme Touch Sensitivity all my Life is
Just Keeping my Hands Closed Mostly everywhere i Went where i had
to Touch Human Made Materials of Course Yet Again An Invisible Disability
Almost No One Could Understand outside of me and Then the Pain and the
Reality that i would Wear Brown Shades Likely the Rest of My Life Starting
in 2008 That i Still Do as my 700 Dollar Shades Have a Special Technology
to Relax my Ocular Nerve and Allowed me to Read Something Without Pain
As i Recovered From All the Pain and Numb AS OF TODAY NINE YEARS
AGO ON A BEACH ON 7.19.2013 AS IT’S TRUE Once You get Out of Hell
of Pain and Numb The Rest of Life is Heaven For Real Within as the Perspective
One Gains
Is Yes this
was Heaven
on Earth All Lifelong
i Just Didn’t Know How
to Fully Appreciate it until
i Went to Hell For 66 Months for Real…
i No Longer Had my Eyes to Smile Yet
i finally Felt like Smiling again and i Did
And Words Of Poetry Free Verse Became my
Eyes Green to Blue Behind Brown Shades Connecting
to Humans All Around the World in Poetic Response Just Like
This For Yes Again 10.7 MiLLioN Words in 107 Months as of the
Anniversary Date Again Yesterday too With Smiles and Yes Even With
A Mask During Covid-19 my Public Dance Now for 16,906 Miles Became
My Green to Blue Changing Eyes/SMiLes to Connect to People That Way in Art
Of Free Dance Everywhere i went and it’s True i was So Uncoordinated and
Uncomfortable in my Own Skin An Autism Spectrum Issue too People Called
Me a Dizzy Fly Before that and Truly i Surely Looked Ridiculous for Real when
i First Started Dancing in Public Yet With Enough Practice anything is Possible
Even Reaching Close to 60 Years Old and the Folks in the Dance Hall Telling
me i Should Surely Get into the Metro Area Dance Contest to Win the Money
Prize hehe
Yet you see
Life was no Competition
For me Just Inhaling Peace
Exhaling Love Bringing Smiles
to Everyone Else With Green to
Blue Changing Smiling Eyes Behind
Shades Becoming Every Move of Dance
Holy to me and Yes Every Word of Song
In Poetry Truly Sacred to me For What i Will
Never Ever Sell my FRiEnD Now For Any Price Yet Giving Love Free
This is what my Life Story Teaches me Love Will A Find a Way Love Will
Find A Way
With Wings of Free
And You Know what Later
Folks in the General Public
Not Only told me i Was Famous
And Legend Yes Young Women in School
Told me They Traded Videos and Photos
They Took of me Dancing as Inspiration
For Not Being Afraid of Being Different Than the ‘Crowd’
In Fact One Girl Told Me She and Her Friends used it for Motivation
to Dance to The Videos they Took of me together to give them inspiration
to Get through their tough
Years at School as Yes i’ve
Been Doing this Almost 9 Years
Come August 26th of this Year 2022
And Even More Amusing As Two Young
Men Were installing A New Front Door and Storm
Glass Door for Us Just Last Year they Said in 2014
That They and Their Middle School Friends Dressed up
Like me at Halloween With Brown Shades and Colorful T-Shirts
With Cultural Memes as True i Have Literally About 1000 of them
Now in Two Closets i Pick Out Each Day to Go Public Dance to Make
Folks Smile Even More there are so Many Ways to Make Folks Happy
my FRiEnD
AS Heaven
Just Never Ends
When All the Giving Becomes the Receiving
SMiLes mY FRiEnD i Accept and Do My Best to
Love All Humans Unconditionally And as Far As Tradition
Goes Where i Live Where they Say Hindus and Muslims are
Gonna Burn In Hell They Don’t Always Like it When i Speak Up
And Tell them from What i’ve Experienced in Life Many of them are
Loves’ (God’s) Best FRiEnD As True They are FRiEnDS of Mine and this is a Key
to Life
Become
Love and
Even DarK Becomes LiGHT
Thank You So Very Much for Welcoming
me on Your Blog as Today the 19th of July 2022
Is Not Only an Anniversary in Heaven for me on
Earth for 9 years Yet Also a 23rd Month Anniversary
For An EPiC Long Form Poem i Casually Term as an 8th
New Testament of the Entire “SonG oF mY SoUL” Yes at
1.8 MiLLioN Words Surpassing the EPiC Poem the ‘Mahฤbhฤrata’
An 8th New EPiC Long Form Poem is Named “Depth of The Story”
that i write solo in a Discussion thread on an Internet Site Named
The ‘Wrong Planet’ Focused On Folks on the Autism Spectrum and
Other Neuro-Diverse People With Disabilities Invisible to Many Folks
Around them too Through this EPiC Long Form Poem That Will Surely
Include What You Have Inspired of me today as true from the start on
August 19th, 2023 i Mentioned Your Name for Inspiration even then
As You Were One of Few Who Welcomed me into Your Blog
Home then as True i Do Go Deeper Than Twitter Size
For What Most Folks Are Comfortable With my FRiEnD
As True Hehe my Comments Are Usually Much Longer
Than Anyone’s Whole Blog Post these days with SMiLes
The Benefit to the Folks on the Wrong Planet Who Were Very
Averse to my Style of Relating Social-Empathic Artistic Spiritual
Intelligences through Free Verse Poetry Helped to Kick me Off the
Site Several Instances for the 7 Years After i Escaped From HeLL ON EartH
Until i Finally Convinced them to Let me Just Have one Solo Thread to Express
All of what i Have to Relate to the World as Free Gift as Again the Giving is all
The Receiving
to me well rarely
does anyone communicate
with me there Yet It’s true there
Are Almost 114,000 Views From
Just the Registered Members there Yet
You See my FRiEnD I AM A REAL Empath
Kinda Autistic Person who Rarely Talked too
And Mostly Just Understood Parts of Life No
One Else did Most of my Life And True There are Many
More Like me too and the Same KATiE MiA Not Only is
Short for my Wife’s First Name Katrina and Her Middle Name
Mia Yet Doubles as An Acronym too For “Kind Autistics Taking
in Everything Mindful in Awareness” As True Again there are Many
Like me and my Sister Diagnosed too Where Her Special Interest
is Super Bird Nerd Tracking Birds in State And County Record Ways
And Taking Photos Featured on Many Nature Websites with 10’s of
Thousands of Views too With Smiles Again Just to Give For Her too
As this is the Way
of the Empath
For We Feel Most
The Happiness We
Bring to Others and Again
THiS Way Love Will Always Find a Way
And on a Final Beginning Note don’t Forget the Word
FRiEnD it comes Naturally With A F R E D iN FRiEnD..:)
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I always wondered about your username ๐ thank you for explaining the true meaning behind it!
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Pleasure Dear
Yamini; Katie
Also Means
Pure; Mia
Means Family
And Close to God;
Frederick Means
Peaceful Ruler
And True Hehe
Ruling me Peacefully
Is Challenge Enough
With
SMiles๐
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An interesting story behind the names ๐
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Thank you so much for the appreciation ๐ I am glad you are enjoying my writing
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Aimez tout ce que vous รฉcrivez.
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Merci ๐งก
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Good one.. Brown shade can do a lot..
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Thank you ๐
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