Do I Own It?

Locked inside the four walls of my house
To ensure my ‘safety’ in the bad world
My monotonous routine suffocates me
I die every day in bits, succumbing to morals

No vacations with friends, no sleepovers
Clubs and bars are not where a ‘decent’ girl enters
Late nights are out of question for me
When a coffee in the evening raises eyebrows

Every move of mine is closely observed
Protective they say, over possessive I hear!
Will I have to sign an application before blinking?
Or will they stop breathing down my neck?

I am an adult, at 23 they want to marry me off
It seems am old enough to handle a family on my own
But taking charge of my individuality is scandalous to them
No matter how hard I try, I still fail to fathom the logic behind this!

Hours pass as I sit listening to my mom’s rant…
Bearing the brunt of my father’s anger
Yea I know they have their own problems, life is tough
But is it any easy for me? At least they feel so!

Then I ask myself… do I even have a life?
The answer is NO! This gives me an insight today
Why have I not stopped my lifeless breaths already?
I can’t take my life because HELLO… I don’t even own it!

30 Comments Add yours

  1. Shayra says:

    A dark and sad poem reflecting your state of mind. Are you alright dear? Or its just a piece of your brilliant mind poured here.

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    1. Yamini says:

      I have dedicated it to all the girls out there struggling to live on their own terms… we are all somewhere connected to these suffocating norms!

      Liked by 1 person

      1. Shayra says:

        Yes, I’M with you. Agree

        Liked by 1 person

      2. Yamini says:

        😊 thank you

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  2. Dhaivant says:

    Beautifully crafted and told the truth. 😁

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Yamini says:

      Thank you so much 😊

      Like

  3. Hey that’s too sad. Being a girl I can feel every word in this….Yes I don’t own my life.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Yamini says:

      We can all relate to this… it indeed is sad!

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  4. Wow Yamini so deep and poignant lines penned and for sure many of our girls are going thru this type of life. No say whatsoever and no freedom. Great picture.

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    1. Yamini says:

      Thank you so much for your support 😊

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  5. Wonderful post !! Loved the way you expressed!!

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Yamini says:

      Thank you so much 😊

      Liked by 1 person

  6. Mr.Lonely says:

    No comments but just take all this as parents concerns and nothing more

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    1. Yamini says:

      I respect your views… thank you

      Liked by 1 person

  7. Celt Peadar says:

    Sometimes, I think this is me. Maybe the picture’s not AS drastic as you painted it here, but that overproctiveness is there.

    Thank You 🙂

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Yamini says:

      Thank you for sharing your thoughts 😊

      Liked by 1 person

  8. Celt Peadar says:

    * Overprotectiveness I mean

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  9. swalia says:

    Beautiful poem depicting the sad state of girls in our society! Parents are over protective but given the tragic state of affairs, we can’t blame them.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Yamini says:

      I agree with you… but things need to change!

      Liked by 1 person

  10. Beautiful post. I love it.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Yamini says:

      Thank you so much 😊

      Liked by 1 person

      1. You’re welcome. It’s good to see your posts again.

        Liked by 1 person

      2. Yamini says:

        Yea… sorry to keep you waiting all these days… I missed writing!!

        Liked by 1 person

      3. That’s okay. Life happens sometimes. I’m sure. We’ve missed you.

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  11. I don’t know where are you from but let me tell you that your words describe the feelings of 80% of girls and women in the middle east.
    I hope you’re okay tho x

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Yamini says:

      I just wish we could change it all…

      Like

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